misssakura

And...yes it's still alive!

Wow, I used to be really, really angry and shirty. I needed some rose tinted glasses or some kool aid or something. Cringeworthy.

This page...is still alive!

From now on I will primarily be updating photos on tumblr. I like deviantart but I never feel like my things are good enough to be posted on deviantart and that means I never post anything. 

It's going to be more like a day to day photo journal rather than an arty farty thing so hopefully it will inspire me to take more photos and the like. Only 18 days to go until we move to the UK and still so much to do. Feel sick with the stress of everything that still has to be done. Which is why I'm making my tumblr blog, of course.

Stupid procrastination.

EDIT: HHAHAHA! I STOPPED TAKING PHOTOS ABOUT 1 WEEK AFTER THIS POST. I rule.

Well, now that bosses and family members know about this here goes. I will be moving back to England in February next year. It was a bit of a rush decision, mainly propelled by Oliver's desire to try working in a different environment and seeing more of the world which is very, very difficult in New Zealand (it's even 4 hours flight to Australia!)

I have very mixed feelings about the move. On one hand I will be happy to see my family again and be able to travel more freely around Europe. On the other hand I haven't lived life as an independent adult in England. I don't know anything about the tax system, I'm not used to the currency anymore and I left England for a reason. I feel that it can be a very depressing environment. It's incredibly competitive, it's not as carefree and safe an environment as New Zealand. I'm also concerned about getting a job as I have no specific skills and no education. I always said that I didn't want to go back until I was confident with myself and my direction in life and unfortunately after 6 years that confidence hasn't materialized. I've been far too concerned with making ends meet. It has been stressful living in a country where I don't really have any support system (free healthcare, family to fall back on in hard times) and working very long hours at my job for nearly 4 years now. It will be interesting to see if I manage to get some of my interests and hobbies back when I have that burden taken away, even if only for a month or two. It will also be my first 'day off' since November 2010 so hope to get some much needed sleep once I step off the plane.

I also have to give away my cute fish, William and Mary and my snail Matilda which sucks. Anybody in Auckland who wants really ugly, big fish? They're cute, I promise!

So we'll see what happens. Hopefully it won't be another chapter of disaster, I'm sort of getting tired of the inability to choose a path for myself. I'm nearly 27 dammit! I'm totally obama campaigning myself (change? what change?).

Edit: Haha typed 'working at my job for 4 hours'. I'd be a lazy fart if I was exhausted after that.

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